"People should fall in love with their eyes closed"

2012-01-24T17:01:00.001+08:00

But you can still hope, cant you?

Even when you know you're wasting your time, what harm can it do to hope?

2012-01-24T03:59:00.001+08:00

2012-01-10T00:29:00.001+08:00

So sad when people personal attack me. I thought we had an unsaid understanding... I guess I thought wrong. But anyways this is for you if you ever come across my blog.

#1. You should have pulled your balls out to say it in my face earlier on
#2. You are no longer having my respect since you obviously don't respect me
#3. Life probably sucks for you cos I'm still ahead of you and you'll still have to do what I say.

Ha.

2012-01-09T17:19:00.001+08:00

Invinsible and insignificant~

2012-01-02T02:53:00.001+08:00

I think of you all the time and it hurts so bad

2011-12-26T02:26:00.002+08:00

#happytimes #instagram #friends #smiles

Phuket tomorrow. Yay.

2011-12-26T00:05:00.002+08:00

Truth is I have no idea how I'm gna enjoy next week without you. I miss you. Gonna start praying as soon as I can.

2011-12-22T01:58:00.001+08:00

6 months......... I miss you so much alrd.
:'''''(

2011-12-20T21:20:00.001+08:00

So tired of pretending

2011-12-19T03:12:00.002+08:00

N level results later in the afternoon....... Oh dear God

2011-12-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

Have been working every morning till noon and blackshotting every night~

I feel like I have no other purpose in life. Hahaha

2011-12-12T01:36:00.000+08:00

#1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DEAREST GIRL CUIFENG! ♡♡♡

#2. Belated pictures~

~> 4/12/11

#late #pussinboots #bugis #lunch #neoprints #l4d2 #dhobyghaut #bimbos #happy

~> 7/12/11

Morning was super angst cze of the stupid drilling next door!!!! Woke me up at 9 in the freaking morning le sigh~~ :( Syalihin called and I met him for breakfast! Met Zadboy after that at 12ish, read a book and watched him study for a few hours before Greg, Jon, Tyrone, Afiq & Din joined us! They studied for a bit more and off to ws we went, where we coincedencely met Cuifeng!!!! Hehehehe ok that's about all~ Pictures~~

2011-12-11T20:34:00.001+08:00

I can't seem to get that scene out of my head. You're supposed to be the one who loves me most in this family la daddy.... :'(

2011-12-06T02:13:00.001+08:00

"2nd December 2011 - A night to remember"

Original plan? Dinner with the girls. Outcome? ...So much more.

From the surprise of knowing we were going over to The Glasshouse's Fish & Co, to finding out that the guys were actually there, to receiving 16 beaaaaautiful pink roses from the guys, to having a splendid dinner with them, to having stand on a freaking chair while the restaurant sang a birthday song to me + watching my friends laugh at me, to taking pretty pictures, to not being able to decide where to go after dinner, to going home happily, to opening my presents at home, to realising that what seemed like a keychain was really a thumbdrive, to watching the video my friends made for me and sobbing uncontrollably, my night was truly perfect. It finally hit me, how much I loved these people. And how much they love me.
♡

2011-12-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

I thought wrong...

Srsly wtf.. Lol wtf. No wonder I haven't been seeing you around. #ccb

2011-12-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

Okay.......

2011-12-01T02:22:00.001+08:00

"Think of all the beauty left around you and be happy"

2011-11-30T02:54:00.000+08:00

Had a pretty bad day... Felt rly lonely hahaha nobody had time for meeeee but it all changed at night! Mama cooked pasta with meatballs for us and brought out my beautiful bday cake!!! I was sososo touched cus she was baking till 2am the previous night, telling me that it was a customer's cake... D'aww my mummy is the best ♡♡♡! Opened ma prezzies and got a super blingz pink panther iphone casing from mummy!! Hahahahahah mad kawaii~ Ella also got me some stuff from Pepper Pot and her mama wrote me a card! Was ultra happpyyyyy and ready to head to bed when suddenly the doorbell rang and I saw Dayah Mia Steph Athira Czar Hasbi & Faiz with a lighted cake singing happy birthday!!!!!!! :') :') :') :') :') :') sho sweet la omg.....
Thank u guys!!!!!!!!! Mad love for these ppl ♡♡♡♡♡♡

2011-11-29T01:59:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to me!!!!!!! Ultra thankful for those who called me at midnight just to wish me a hbd + sing korean songs to me, those who wished me on Facebook & Twitter, those who texted me, and those 3 people up there who oovoo-d with me despite having school tomorrow!!! Ultra happy birthday gal.

I love you all!!! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

2011-11-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

My heart's not as heavy as before...

I truly am happy now :)

2011-11-28T00:26:00.001+08:00

"Picture perfect moments"

TP band's concert on the 26th! Had a gr8 time there supporting Afiq!!! Could distinctly hear his horn hahaha omg I felt so proud of him! Tyrone drove us all in circles outside the auditorium in a buggy car after the concert while waiting for Afiq! Hahahaha #badass #cheapthrills!!!! Dinz @ Sempang Bedok after that and then got home at abt 12+! Great night ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

2011-11-27T17:03:00.000+08:00

My very own Sex Gods ♡♡♡♡♡

2011-11-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

#1 Band camp for the past 2 days

#2 Worst band camp experience

#3 Feeling ultra tired

#4 Performance tomorrow

#5 Afiq's performance on Saturday

5 random facts on a gloomy day. Oh and I'm still working on my speech right now, all I got is "The trombone is a musical instrument in the brass family." Hahahaha fail okay bye shall continue researching!

2011-11-21T00:37:00.002+08:00

I did it before I had the chance to chicken out.....

2011-11-20T04:16:00.001+08:00

Had lunch and caught Happy Feet 2 with the bear friend + kim + shareen last thursday, and I rly enjoyed catching up with them hehehehe shall hope to see them soon in hope to celebrate kim & my birthday together! Met the gang after my movie at the recreation centre to watch them study and it kind of was pretty horrible initially because I felt so sick, but it got better cze I rly missed them and we were finally able to see each other all at once!! Last time we all went out together was probably last year when they were all still in gv haha ok sad. Anyway moving on, band camp next week and it kind of feels sucky to not be able to be in the committee... I feel like I'm not a leader lol that sucks but ya Luqman and I have agreed to stay optimistic and be glad that we'll be able to just enjoy the camp as campers hahahaha yup............... Ok this is pointless bye

2011-11-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today was definitely a rainbow after yesterday's hurricane hehehe!!! Finally confirmed braces, extraction will be on the fifth of January 2012 which is pretty exciting yet scary at the same time... + had a gr8 shopping trip at Dorothy Perkins with mama since there was a huge sale going on!! Mad happy with my purchases hehehe rly appreciate my parents for spending a bomb on me + treating me like a princess today cze they knew how upset I was ystd.... Love my parents! ♡♡♡♡♡

2011-11-16T02:15:00.001+08:00

Wtf do u have no brains or smth? I understand quitting is hard but at least try??? So bloody messed up
Such a bad night

2011-11-16T00:58:00.003+08:00

I miss you so much...
So, so fucking much
:'(

2011-11-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

Have been pretty happy and busy lately! 3 days of work was good, definitely tiring but I made new friends! Co worked with a cute boy and xchanged facebooks with him on the last day only to find out he has a girlfriend. Bummer. Hahahaha anyway, got pretty tight with my partner Laura & also her friend Rick! Probably gna meet them some time soon for lunch hehehe psyched!

Aside from work, band's been keeping me busy with the upcoming performance somewhere at the end of November.... Early mornings without breakfast just for band practice really gets me grumpy. Especially when idiot junior D gets all rude with me and pisses me off... Le sigh~

My nights have been extremely better though!!! Cuifeng and Tyrone has been coming over to my area just to catch up + play cards hehehehe happy happy! I also started on Maple again hahahaha playing Bootes with Jasper, Yeow Tiong & Nicol!!!! Hahahaha damn qt la we all hehehe okay that's about all. This week's pretty packed, tmr I'll spend the day alone at the library or smth, dental on Wednesday, lunch with Kimberley, Beverley and Shareen on Thursday and probably a section lunch after band on Thursday. Hehe ok bye :3

2011-11-10T00:45:00.001+08:00

Girls only.
Because boys suck.

2011-11-08T00:56:00.003+08:00

Voluntary work at some old folks home later on in the afternoon mmmm

2011-11-07T00:30:00.001+08:00

"Sealed with a kiss"

Job briefing yesterday was pretty much a waste of time but yeah at least we left with our pockets and bags full of snacks!!!! Met Cuifeng and Tyrone after that for 2359 and it was a pretty goood movie besides the fact that Tyrone threw popcorn at me every once in awhile.... Hahaha had dinner after that and karaoke! Called Vanny over and we had such a blast!!!!!!! Went home at around 1230 and brothers weren't home + parents were asleep alr. Felt kinda badass but also bad at the same time hahahaha. This coming week shld be interesting, voluntary work on Tuesday and work on Thursday onwards! Psychedddd hehehe bye!

2011-11-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

2011-10-31T01:56:00.003+08:00

funny how a small detail like turning the auto capitalization off in my phone actually makes a difference. it really makes me feel like i've officially shut down. like all along i've been pretending to be some really happy girl when actually all i am is an unhappy girl. and now with my auto capitlization off, as cliche as it sounds i feel like i tore that fake wall down. i am an unhappy girl, and that is me. deal with it.
I am the girl who pretends. I am weak.

2011-10-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

"Heartaches and mistakes, how many hits can a good girl take?"

2011-10-29T03:06:00.001+08:00

2011-10-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

I rly gotta stop being so stupid lol

I feel like I don't deserve to sleep, shall turn my phone off and just spend the bloody night doing math

2011-10-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

Did you forget that like you, I have feelings too?

2011-10-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

Time now, 2:28AM and ma fam's heading to Kukup in approximately 5hours time!!!

I am beyond excited I am jumping up and down right now hehe

2011-10-20T02:44:00.000+08:00

"Not everybody's gna stay by you through thick and thin. Most say they will but never really do.

At least I know someone who has been by my side all this while."

2011-10-17T12:09:00.002+08:00

I miss my friends so so much!!!!!!!

>>>>:(

2011-10-14T04:02:00.002+08:00

How's this year's gonna be like?

Have to say I feel a wee bit lonelier this year....

So make me feel special, will you? Because that's all I ever want.

2011-10-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

I've been whiny this whole week and it's finally time to stop. I need to get this shit out. Yes, I miss you. But I'm never going back to you. You never once cared, and I was silly to let you back in countless times after. I survived without you for a bit but you just had to come back, giving me wrong signals, making me feel insecure about myself, putting hopes on you all over again and watching you crush them all as the day passes.

I said Good bye. No turning back now.

2011-10-08T00:26:00.001+08:00

2011-10-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes when you give up on someone,
it’s not because you don’t care anymore but because you realize they don’t."

#1. I think I might lose a good friend real soon.

#2. I lost someone special to me just recently.

#3. I never deserved to be treated the way you treated me.

#4. And no matter how upset I am that you're no longer here,

#5. I'm glad I stood up for myself.

2011-10-05T19:01:00.001+08:00

Pssssht, of course I'm okay.

2011-09-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

1 thing you need to know about me? i detest the (: face. it's so fake it makes me wanna puke.

so something's definitely wrong when i give you a "ya i'll be fine in no time(:" reply. yes. now that you've read this, come tell me you realised your mistake and give me a big hug please thank you

Adventure of the pedophile

2011-09-12T01:33:00.001+08:00

Muahahaha cute little babies omg!!!!! Love it when I go over to a house for visiting (since it's Hari Raya) and there's a baby/little kid in the house! Absolutely love kids even if they get annoyingly loud and stuff. Hehehehe alrighty toodles!

2011-09-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

I may be loud, a wannabe, a case of trying-too-hard, but under that all I'm just lonely.

2011-09-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

I made a wishlist/to-do-list on my phone today. HAHAHAHA

#nonsense #okbye

2011-08-29T16:00:00.001+08:00

"You'll never go wrong with God"

(HAHAHAHA I think my face is supa round. Fam said that you can actually draw my face using a compass...... HAHAHAH nvm I still look so tiute here with Mia ^~^)

> Anyway, went for Qiam this morning at 3 after napping for a good 15 minutes.... T_T sleep deprived~~ Was only able to sleep at 7 after all prayers was done! Mmm, this Ramadhan has been a really good month, went for prayers as often as I could and it's crazy, really. How much I seem to have changed. Must be the most meaningful Ramadhan so far... Alhamdulilah.

> Anyway, Raya tmr!!!!!! Hehehehe yay okay shall go wake my brother up and then we can go buy bottles and bottles of 1.5litre drinks hehehe ^^ X

2011-08-29T02:11:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday my dearest Rachel!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

> I love you woman, so so much.

2011-08-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

"A night at Geylang"

> Met Dia to break our fast at 18 chefs!!!! Cheese baked rice was shooooo good! Mmmmm then met Mia and Yus and cabbed over to Geylang to meet the rest of the 5B kids! Was a great night indeed ^^

2011-08-23T15:20:00.006+08:00

"The greatest joy is to be surrounded by the greatest people"

> It was Zonghan's birthday the other day and we successfully surprised him with a cake and a mini celebration! Everyone was so happy and satisfied it was almost perfect hehehe well besides the fact that Beverley wasn't there and we muslims could only stare at the cake since we were fasting :'( ... but it's alright!!! We shall have cake together soon ehehe! X

2011-08-10T01:55:00.001+08:00

I have been happy☺

and that's all that matters.

2011-08-05T15:53:00.000+08:00

Day 5 of Ramadhan

I'm a happy (but sick) girl!

2011-07-27T15:21:00.002+08:00

One of those fucking days. Fuck this

2011-07-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

@ppl3 g4l

-> School lately has been full of kartrider!!! Hahahaha anyway had my N lvl Chinese oral earlier on, I stuttered so much.. Wish I was fluent in Chinese...... fml. Had a rly late lunch cum early dinner after that with the usual (khng, tikhaar, jiahao, keith, zonghan) and hehehe happy "couples" r us~~

2011-07-21T17:30:00.001+08:00

@ Bear's place right now!!! Had sushi and did my stupid project video thingy for awhile. Got quite a bit done! *sense of achievement* Mhmm, the bear friend is bathing right now and I'm just waiting for her then we'll leave :) And her frigging macbook just scared me by saying "It's 17:30"..... Okay, She's out she's out! Toodles x

2011-07-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

Two consecutively fabulous days!!! Caught Harry Potter 7 yesterday along with Kristine, Iftikhaar & Jiahao! Which I unexpectedly enjoyed a lot, aside from the fact that due to my non-existant hp knowledge, I got tricked many times by Iftikhaar... Hahaha! But it was great! Really had a splendid time with them :)

Had a Chinese heritage thingy at Chinatown's museum and it was surprisingly interesting!!! Looking at the environment and hygiene level the olden days of Singapore had made me really thankful for what we have now. It was kind of freaky as well, the death houses and stuff. Anyway, had an early dinner after that with Bear, Kristine, Keith, Iftikhaar, Zong Han & Jiahao! Ate and then we went to take neoprints!!!! Mad cute hahahaha omg! Love my happy pills! Off to get 7 questions of amath done now, byeee ;p x

p/s;

letter #2 from abe ♥

2011-07-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Sick and tired

Literally

2011-07-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

"Don't you wish you could go back to when you hadn't lost anything?"

Sexy girl with mr.gameboards

I look like a bleddy midget!!! Tallbee_94 is him

Hahaha was skyping with Abe some time ago and we both had our nose pore thingymajig on!!!! Mad cute hehehe

So!!! School has been tiring as shit hahahaha which is why I'm gna head for a nap now okay bye

2011-07-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Kimmie(@kehmeh) and Hidayah(@hellyeahdayah)!!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hasbiol Muhd Hasbi Jamal

by lingomingo

Sexy girls <3 @hellyeahdayah @lingomingo @nurulamiraa http://twitpic.com/5ok1bb

Surprised Dayah at her house while she was asleep on her birthday(?!?!) together with Amira, Nizam, Delfina, Irfan, Zaki, Hasbi, Faiz, Czaraim, Muhd, Meng and Sukhdeep! The strawberry cheesecake we got for her was super nomzz!!! :) Had funny videos taken and then we left for dinner at airport! Dinner was twice as nomz with Nurshaizyanabi~~(haha!) Today was a great day with awesome company omg hehe. So much laughter today, ahhhh just waiting for pictures to be uploaded now!! Hehehe

That was Dayah's birthday part of my entry, now Kimmie's birthday! Since it's in the middle of nowhere (a.k.a in the middle of Os/Ns), we couldn't really meet up so.....

Hehehehe! Me competing with Aqil! Hahahaha, anyway! Love these two bitches and I hope they had a great day~ x

2011-07-09T01:08:00.001+08:00

Today I went out with Ella Bella!

Headed to Bugis and we got plenty of stuff which included things like matching anklets and her pretty as hell Topshop shorts!!!! Contemplated on getting a dress but didn't! Regretting it now though, should have totally gotten it!!!! Ahhhhh~_~ Anyway, tomorrow will probably be a really long day.... Haiiiiiiz~_~

Today was also the most humiliating day, ever. All respect that I had for you is now gone because mam, you bloody embarrassed the hell out of me. And you obviously never thought about my feelings when you decided to just show the bloody letter on the screen in front of everybody. So screw you. And you, mr.bloody insensitive, .. I thought we were friends wtf. Please grow up and realise that not everything that is funny to you, is funny to others as well. Disappointed.

2011-07-05T22:20:00.001+08:00

It's the fifth

One word: Fifteen

Bye

2011-07-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

Intensive chinese oral tuition started earlier today. A three hour session tomorrow and yet another session on Monday. I am starting to day dream in Chinese oh god. Chinese oral for Ns' on 25th July while English's on the 5th.... Oh god. Good luck for those having their Os and Ns oral next week!!!!!

Anyway, Just had a few rounds of blackshot with Rachel and Zad. And my brother.

talk about awkward....

2011-07-02T01:33:00.000+08:00

Why so glum, plum?

2011-06-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

Things you can do to be happier:

elafant:

Go to bed earlier
Finish things ahead of time
Eat whole-food
Exercise
Be present
Organize
Listen to music
Think positively
Drink lots of water
Journal
Read
Be productive
Eat fresh fruit
Breathe deeply
Go for a bike ride

--
Amount of homework is increasing as each day passes... and not to forget the pressure. N level's English oral next Tuesday, wow much. Time flies, huh? X

2011-06-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

Second day of school and I'm exhausted already! Hasn't been a breeze, trying to cope with everything going on and I have to admit that it sometimes really gets to me, affecting me to a point where all I want to do is get away from reality and hide behind the shelves in the library reading a book. Boooooo I should stop being so negative huh hahaha where's the optimism~~ Alrighty shall get back to homework now haha toodles! x

2011-06-26T19:06:00.001+08:00

So bloody insecure

2011-06-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

What lies between us, stays between us, always.

2011-06-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

just poured shit out to aqil. i just said the f word. the word i'm most afraid of. i said it out. i admitted it. and as expected, i feel crappy. why. it's like i just slapped myself. god.

#timetogetreal

2011-06-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

bored.com

went out with the girls today! met cui & rach and we walked around ehub before catching Super 8! smuggled lotsa food in the theatre and it was like we were having our own personal picnic! heh~~ and because they "forced" me to finish the chips or they would throw it away, i ate it even despite knowing that the shocking scenes were coming! which resulted into me throwing the chips to rachel and cui instead of eating them. OH GOD. met vanessa after the movie for a while and caught up while she had yogurt! she left after awhile and we met lester and jeremy to get dinner! slacked after that at macs while the guys made their very own "macfloat" hahaha and then left for home! today was well, alright :)

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So Super 8 was good. Other than the fact that I had chips in my hair which Tang accidentally threw due to shock.

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2011-06-17T01:17:00.001+08:00

2011-06-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

not a very flattering photo but this picture really captured how i felt at that point of time. i remember that feeling. absolute bliss. i was extremely happy on that day, with nothing but great company :)

2011-06-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

08/06:

(delayed post)! so, this was from last wednesday, on the eighth! had amath lesson in the morning as usual, and then initial plans was to go cycling at pasir ris park! but plan changed cos the weather didn't seem promising... so yeah, decided to just slack around before catching dylan dog!

caught dylan dog and it was unexpectedly alright!! i was expecting it to be kinda boringish cos such movies weren't really my type? but yeah it was alright. it was actually filled with me embarassing myself while the guys kept scaring me. screamed like a loser :( hahaha thankssss a bunch eh. anyway, so after the movie, sent them to bus stop while i waited for cui!

met cui, studied at mccafe for awhile and asked afiq along! then they wanted to have dinner at fish & co so decided to head over and continue studying there!

so last week was pretty much full of me going out to study! bumped into yousuf pretty much everyday... awkward!!!

friday, went out with cuifeng, isabel, shastriya, and syuhada! caught up at macs and we made sooo much noise!!! it was awesome ^^ we were so louuud omgosh. a while later, went over to the pool area at ehub to meet syuhada's friends! made a new friend, hanif! then syuhada had to leave so we went to tera bite and we played this awesome lying game which was freaking funny!!! hahaha then met trudy and vanny! then we saw a sex book with tits-filled pictures hahaha omg #scarred. great day :) hahaha alrighty now. work on thursday, psyched!!!!! bye guysss x

2011-06-10T00:41:00.001+08:00

at times, i joke with my friends about being really lonely, about being #foreveralone

but at other times, i really do feel like i'm alone in this world

2011-06-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

went for breakfast at nine with the bear friend, iftikhaar and syalihin today before heading for amath lesson :) since we were early, spammed photobooth piccies with abe, syaz, monica etc. got the boys to join in and jonathan spent most of the time trying to photobomb our photos with his hands/face/etc!!! was in the middle of a four-shot photo when suddenly mrs c walked in!

after amath lesson, went to grab lunch with bear at tampines!!! been so long since we went to tamp for sushi. memories :')! good times~~ had our usual salmon sushi + miso soup! whoop whoop~ really felt like old times, and i'm glad for it. glad i have someone i can spill everything out to, someone to go satisfy my random cravings (sushi) at random times :)

(2008)

(2009)

(2010)

"eh help me check the timing for my bus leh"

"... your bus is here bitch"

since we didn't take any photos today i thought i'd use photos from the past. love you bear :)

2011-06-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

a video from quite some time ago, edited it earlier on to distract myself. am loving my video editor program thingy!!

2011-06-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

out of the two, i was only worried for you. note, i said only. i wasn't even worried for him to be honest. all i could think of was how you would cope, how you were doing. how your skin would react. how you would react to the environment. how you would this, how you would that. seven days, i missed you like crazy.

i cried myself to sleep every night, not having you around.

now, you're back in one piece. you talk to your friends like you were proud of it. telling everyone all about it. like it's a joke. everyday i try to get closer to you, i try my best to keep you happy. but today? screw trying man. the whole day i was my usual self, talking to you as per normal even when i'm so bloody tired cos i had lesson in the morning. i tried not to spend time on the laptop, i tried to spend time with you, talk to you. screw that, all you did was shout at me. i locked myself in my room and cried. then you asked me if i still wanted to go out. despite your angsty mood, i said sure. i wanted to spend as much time as i can with you.

the plans suddenly got canceled. and you were upset. you were in a bad mood and scolded everyone. i was at shock. you're seriously crossing the line. everyone's pissed off. i asked you a question, you shouted at me. i asked you why in the world you keep shouting at me when all i'm doing is asking you a question. you said because i was irritating you. i ran away. here i am, locked in my room. crying.

i love you,

and i think you don't love me as much as i love you.

because all you're doing

is hurting me.

2011-05-30T01:00:00.001+08:00

"Insya'Allah, you'll find your way"

Insya'Allah (God willing) - Maher Zain

"Every time

You feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost and that you're so alone

All you see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless you can't see which way to go

Don't despair

And never lose hope

'Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

You'll find your way

Every time

You commit one more mistake

You feel you can't repent and that it's way too late

You're so confused

Wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full shame

But don't despair

And never lose hope

Coz Allah is always by your side

Turn to Allah

He's never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

Ya Allah

Guide my steps, don't let me go astray

You're the only one who can show me the way

Show me the way

InshaAllah

We'll find the way"

This time round, it's not just one. It's two. I feel so lost, without you. I love you, and I miss you. Oh God, I pray. I pray for their absence, I pray for their well-being. I pray for the best, that they (b) will be alright and with God's blessing that nothing too bad will happen. I pray, that they (p) will not give up and will always stay strong. I pray that we can all overcome this challenge together. I pray that everything will be alright.

2011-05-29T02:24:00.002+08:00

Me want :(

2011-05-29T01:49:00.000+08:00

"Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars, collecting a jar of hearts, and tearing love apart"

2011-05-28T23:32:00.003+08:00

27/05:

2011-05-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

I love you bitch <3

2011-05-22T15:59:00.000+08:00

Of course I'll be alright,

I just had a bad night.

2011-05-15T01:06:00.001+08:00

"I spent forever wondering if

you knew I was enchanted to meet you"

I love you, bimbo ♥♥♥♥♥

..please don't be in love with someone else.. please don't have somebody waiting on you :/

2011-05-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

""I just don't know if I want to do it anymore, get close to somebody so they can leave again"

07/05: Claryzzer's belated birthday party! <3

2011-05-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

"I will not be weak anymore"

05/05: Delfina's birthday!

Studied with Zaki, Irfan, Athira, Amira and Dayah just now whoop whoop, quite productive!! Felt smart teaching Zaki math heh ^_^ Screwed all my past papers cus of pure laziness sigh~~ Cannot get affected by things so easily!!! I'm letting go, hahahaha cos prompuan mesti "jual mahal" ya okay. No but seriously, it's about time I let go. Kkkkk happy girl cos I has no paper tomorrow which means more time to study physics and amath, whoop whoop! Hehehe glee time, bye!

2011-05-08T02:18:00.001+08:00

"Everything will turn out fine"

Today:

Psyched -> Disappointed -> Happy -> Awkward -> Upset -> Disappointed -> Happy -> Extremely happy

"I came here just for you okay"

Bought the new look baseball jacket I saw the other day today and I am officially super broke!!! Got to save like at least ten bucks per week now!!! Also, gotta think of what to do for somebody's special day on the fifteenth! Kind of psyched/nervous? Hope all goes well!!!! Night guys x

2011-04-29T16:54:00.000+08:00

"What are words if you really

don't mean them when you say them?"

24/04/2011:

Princess Mia's birthday! <3

2011-04-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

2011-04-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

Less than two weeks to mid-years :(

2011-04-13T18:18:00.001+08:00

Bronze

We tried our best, and no matter what, my band is still a gold band in my eyes and heart <3

Had hiccups the whole frigging day. It went off twice for like ten minutes and then came back. You have no idea how weird it was to hiccup while the teachers were trying to teach, hiccuping while you're in the library, and hiccuping while you're peeing. Literally peed like five times thanks to all the "drink 8/10/12/14 gulps of water and the hiccups will go away!!!" Nothing worked :( Finally my savior Roger Lim saved me by giving me a mug of warm water and getting me to drink it with my nose pinched. It totally killed my hiccups. I frigging love that man right now!!!

Anyway, was home early today and kinda felt empty. No more coming home after six because of band. Kinda miss band already :( I miss my sachok boysss!!! Bah okay toodles! x

2011-04-10T16:33:00.004+08:00

SYF'11 tomorrow

It really scares me, the expectations, the hopes.

We've gone far too deep to go back now.
One chance is all we've got.

Pray.

2011-04-09T23:34:00.001+08:00

“You don’t get that many people in your life that
you can just tell anything to.”

2011-04-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

I miss you
(so fucking much)

2011-04-02T19:18:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes the decisions which seems hardest to make, are the ones that will eventually make us happiest"

#1 I missed the whole frigging chalet yesterday >:( :'( :'(

#2 Counting down the days....

#3 Daddy's coming back from his business trip soon

#4 Went out alone, ate alone, shopped alone today

#5 I'm still upset I missed out on all the fun.

#6 k bye

2011-03-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

"Because you saw me when I was invisible"

I am exhaaaaaaausted! CIP's finally over and it was a huge success! Movie screening today had more turn-ups than I expected. Freaked out and embarrassed myself (as usual) during the horror film earlier on. Mm anyway, tons of band practices to "look forward to", bedok resevoir run (which took us much persuasion before deciding to not absent ourselves), tests, and as usual, tons of homework.

Just had "The Trust Talk" with mummy, and might say it went pretty good. Just hope I won't disappoint her any further. Gotta be serious about my studies now. Toodles! xx

2011-03-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

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